Enough, already.

I sometimes wonder how my grandmother survived the long days and nights in the nursing home. She felt lonely without my grandpa, who had predeceased her. She reported that she was often bored or left feeling helpless, as she was confined to the wheelchair and later the bed.

I myself haven't yet learned to lean wholly on Christ, not only for short periods of crisis but for long periods of hardship or isolation. It's something that's still developing in me - how to turn to him when there is no family, no friend available, no entertaining music or television program to distract me.

Yesterday was "one of those days." High school students acting out. College students screaming at me, threatening to call the dean. My little boys "adopted" some pet snakes and put them in the garage. The littlest boy built a fort in the music room, using every dining room chair and laundry basket (leaving the dirty clothes from those baskets covering every inch of the laundry room). Spill eggs on the kitchen floor, left there for the dog we don't have anymore.

I didn't have the energy to clean any of it up or make dinner. I shut down and went to bed at 7 p.m.

(It dawned on me this morning that I might need some more iron in my diet. A thick piece of tenderloin might do the trick. Or liver and onions. :E)



Lyrics "You're Not Alone"
by Meredith Andrews

I searched for love when the night came and it closed in
I was alone, but You found me where I was hiding
And now I'll never ever be the same
It was the sweetest voice that called my name, saying

You're not alone for I am here
Let me wipe away your every fear
My love, I've never left your side
I have seen you through the darkest night
And I'm the One who's loved you all your life
All your life

You cry yourself to sleep
â€~Cause the hurt is real and the pain cuts deep
All hope seems lost with heartache your closest friend
And everyone else long gone
You've had to face the music on your own
But there is a sweeter song that calls you home, saying

You're not alone for I am here
Let me wipe away your every tear
My love, I've never left your side
I have seen you through the darkest night
And I'm the One who's loved you all your life
All your life

Faithful and true forever
My love will carry you

You're not alone for I, I am here
Let me wipe away your every fear
My love, I've never left your side
I have seen you through the darkest night
Your darkest night
And I'm the One who's loved you all your life
All your life