On doctor's orders, I'm supposed to decrease the level of adrenaline in my system.
It has many negative effects, of course, this perpetual "flight or fight" response. In my particular case, the senses of smell and hearing are on overdrive and I've been clenching (and clenching) (and clenching) my jaw.
So I'm working at this from two angles, trying to minimize overstimulating situations and finding ways to exercise and work off the stored-up adrenaline.
It seems to be particularly difficult these days, to simply "coast along." (Visualize sailing. Wait, I'm terrified of deep water)
My boys live for the thrill of competition. For instance, N, now 17, competes in track. Tonight they will announce the Broadway Theater League Awards for 2015 and he is in the running for "Best Male Lead." (It's everything I can do not to bite my nails as I wait).
There are some "big" situations in our family life right now - a BFF battling breast cancer, for example.
I long to look at beautiful landscapes without battling crowds and traffic.
Small steps...(?)(?)(?)
I just finished a successful first semester back in graduate school (Well, grades aren't posted.I don't actually know for sure if I passed...holding my breath and clenching my teeth until they are!)(Wait! I'm trying not to do just that!)
The Spring 2015 semester is over (and grades are DUE. There is so much work to do to calculate grades).
Sunday is Mother's Day (Damn it! I don't have any cards in the mail!)
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